Os its time to write some more........no more laziness. :D
So I must report that i do feel a litttle bit better than i felt when i wrote my last post. I guess putting things in writing and then coming back and read it sort of help to see things in a different light. Im not saying im completely cured. (I wish)
But probably most people would thing im a crazy lunatic with no life.
Anyways, this post is not so much about me but more about whats going on in my family right now. Last Sunday seemed like any other regular Sunday here in Beaverton; cold, quiet and boring. My aunt Iris was returning from Venezuela after her uncle died a couple weeks ago and she had to fly over there to be with her family. It was nice to have her back and our common routines seemed like were going to come back to normal.......I was wrong.
On Monday my uncle came to the office feeling very sick. For weeks he was complaining about his throat being swollen and he not being able to breathe with easy nor eat. Monday morning he must have felt very terrible because he could not do much of anything. after much insistence my friend Trisha pushed him to go see a doctor to get checked out and see what was going on with his throat.
She might as well saved his life......
The doctors apparently found some sort of tumor in this throat and wanted to perform extra tests to determine what it was. That signaled a 180 degree turn on our lives. And yes i know its was only yesterday but things like this change everything in a matter of hours.
As I write this he is on the Intensive care center being monitored 24/7. My grandma and other uncle from Venezuela are on their way here in an emergency trip and so is my aunts dad who is a doctor.
I do not know yet what the outcome of this will be but i know for sure that things are going to change around Johntown.
xoxo
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Ready, Set, STOP?!
Ok so, I will call this my first official blog post.
The way i want to kick off things around here is by expressing how much I've changed over a short period of time. It all started back in august of this year when I traveled to San Francisco, CA. I went to a Harry Potter convention with friends I made online and whom I've never met before.
It had a wonderful time. Meeting my long time online friends in person was the best experience of my life. Waling around San Francisco and meeting new people and places its something I will never forget.
Once I came back home I immediately noticed that something was different. I felt different, I saw my surroundings different, I smelled something different in the air. What changed is something I have yet to figure out......and it probably take a long long time to figure out.
The months after my trip became a roller coaster ride of emotions and feelings that i have never experienced before. To me it seemed like a huge mental barrier was shattered my unknown forces and now I had / have to deal with a new world i have never seen before.
But I am being too general about everything and now i want to give concrete examples of things that have changed. Many of you who read this will think im the weirdest person of all persons but these are things that actually happened. Ok.....So, one thing that changed is my sense of belonging. I go to PSU (Portland State University) and ive been a student there for almost a year now. Before I never felt like i was part of that school, I just went there cause my classes where taught there. I would never get involved in anything, I would never socialize with anyone....yeah ANYONE....I was completely disconnected from everything. Like I said, its like I had a mental veil that cocooned me inside of myself. I never had any desires to do anything else outside of class or nothing of that sort. Now that's changed.
The new John, so to speak, has feelings now. The new John wants to be involved and wants to have friends and socialize with people. I have desires to do things i would never even imagined before like, say, join the PSU basketball team.
Is that weird to say? to imagine? a person with absolutely no friends or connections now suddenly awakens and finds just how lonely and unplugged he was from the rest of the world.....this is the part that scares me.
Where will this take me? Am I the person I though I was?
I may never know.
The way i want to kick off things around here is by expressing how much I've changed over a short period of time. It all started back in august of this year when I traveled to San Francisco, CA. I went to a Harry Potter convention with friends I made online and whom I've never met before.
It had a wonderful time. Meeting my long time online friends in person was the best experience of my life. Waling around San Francisco and meeting new people and places its something I will never forget.
Once I came back home I immediately noticed that something was different. I felt different, I saw my surroundings different, I smelled something different in the air. What changed is something I have yet to figure out......and it probably take a long long time to figure out.
The months after my trip became a roller coaster ride of emotions and feelings that i have never experienced before. To me it seemed like a huge mental barrier was shattered my unknown forces and now I had / have to deal with a new world i have never seen before.
But I am being too general about everything and now i want to give concrete examples of things that have changed. Many of you who read this will think im the weirdest person of all persons but these are things that actually happened. Ok.....So, one thing that changed is my sense of belonging. I go to PSU (Portland State University) and ive been a student there for almost a year now. Before I never felt like i was part of that school, I just went there cause my classes where taught there. I would never get involved in anything, I would never socialize with anyone....yeah ANYONE....I was completely disconnected from everything. Like I said, its like I had a mental veil that cocooned me inside of myself. I never had any desires to do anything else outside of class or nothing of that sort. Now that's changed.
The new John, so to speak, has feelings now. The new John wants to be involved and wants to have friends and socialize with people. I have desires to do things i would never even imagined before like, say, join the PSU basketball team.
Is that weird to say? to imagine? a person with absolutely no friends or connections now suddenly awakens and finds just how lonely and unplugged he was from the rest of the world.....this is the part that scares me.
Where will this take me? Am I the person I though I was?
I may never know.
New Beginnings?
New shiny blog. I'm loving this.
Ironically I don't have much to say, I guess my brain needs time to organize my ideas and package them in a blog format. Haha I should of expected that....Im a very random person.
I guess this is it for now.
Ironically I don't have much to say, I guess my brain needs time to organize my ideas and package them in a blog format. Haha I should of expected that....Im a very random person.
I guess this is it for now.
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