Ready, Set, STOP?!

Ok so, I will call this my first official blog post.

The way i want to kick off things around here is by expressing how much I've changed over a short period of time. It all started back in august of this year when I traveled to San Francisco, CA. I went to a Harry Potter convention with friends I made online and whom I've never met before.

It had a wonderful time. Meeting my long time online friends in person was the best experience of my life. Waling around San Francisco and meeting new people and places its something I will never forget.

Once I came back home I immediately noticed that something was different. I felt different, I saw my surroundings different, I smelled something different in the air. What changed is something I have yet to figure out......and it probably take a long long time to figure out.

The months after my trip became a roller coaster ride of emotions and feelings that i have never experienced before. To me it seemed like a huge mental barrier was shattered my unknown forces and now I had / have to deal with a new world i have never seen before.

But I am being too general about everything and now i want to give concrete examples of things that have changed. Many of you who read this will think im the weirdest person of all persons but these are things that actually happened. Ok.....So, one thing that changed is my sense of belonging. I go to PSU (Portland State University) and ive been a student there for almost a year now. Before I never felt like i was part of that school, I just went there cause my classes where taught there. I would never get involved in anything, I would never socialize with anyone....yeah ANYONE....I was completely disconnected from everything. Like I said, its like I had a mental veil that cocooned me inside of myself. I never had any desires to do anything else outside of class or nothing of that sort. Now that's changed.

The new John, so to speak, has feelings now. The new John wants to be involved and wants to have friends and socialize with people. I have desires to do things i would never even imagined before like, say, join the PSU basketball team.

Is that weird to say? to imagine? a person with absolutely no friends or connections now suddenly awakens and finds just how lonely and unplugged he was from the rest of the world.....this is the part that scares me.

Where will this take me? Am I the person I though I was?

I may never know.